Well…

I cannot believe it’s been so long since I have posted anything here.  Life has a weird way of catching up to you and before you know it, you’re stuck in traffic. Good news is that traffic always let’s up, it just may take a while.

So I’ve decided to get off the highway for a while

 and cruise down some backroads. Hopefully this will give me time to do what I love to do. Write.

Love, peace, and Blessed Be

Seraphina

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What is Insanity?

What is insanity? 

There are a lot of definitions. There are a lot of large vocabulary words and medical terms to describe what insanity is, but wanting someone you can’t have is probably the most accurate.

Being so wildy attracted to someone you can’t have is insanity. It’s like being hit by a bus everytime you see them. For a fleeting moment the adrenaline kicks in and you feel so high, then the most intense pain you’ve ever felt washes over you like a tidal wave. You leave feeling so alone, so empty, a shell of a human being. That person’s face haunts you. It’s the first one you see when you wake up because all you can dream about is them. It’s the last face you see before you fall asleep. Permanently etched into your vision. It gets to the point where you don’t want to wake up because the life you have with them in dreamland is so perfect and you don’t want to be thrust back into the reality of them not loving you back.

Insanity is feeling your phone go off and hoping it’s them, then feeling your heart sink into your stomach every time it’s not. Insanity is crying on your way to work because you’ve finally let yourself realise you’re in love with them and can’t have them. Insanity is sitting in your kitchen by yourself drinking a cup of coffee remembering what they sound like when they laugh, the sparkle in their eye when they tell you about the crazy shit they get themselves into, how easily they get you to open up to them about anything and everything.

Insanity is wondering. Do they feel the same about you? Do they see you in the same halo of light you see them? Does their heart get ripped out of their chest everytime you leave? Do they lay awake at night thinking about what it would be like to hold you in their arms every day? Do they wonder what you’re thinking when your eyes meet? Do they know how much joy and pain they cause you?

So, by definition, I am insane.

Everything is Nothing with a Twist

You know what the best answer to the question “what is it you want from me?” is? “Nothing.”

Saying this to a person who has given everything to everyone they have ever known is the most heartstopping, breathtaking, absolutely freeing response. “A person in my life doesn’t actually want anything from me.” 

Some of you may think “we’ll damn that’s kinda harsh” when in reality it’s the nicest thing someone can say to you. It can translate into “I do not need anything from you, just having you in my life is enough.”

I love balance. Yin and yang, good and evil, everything and nothing, harmony. So in all reality, telling me you need and want nothing from me is basically saying that I’ve already given you everything you want or need. 

I love the above quote because it’s roots are in math. Zero is empty. It is the definition of nothing. Infinity is full. It is the definition of everything. Zero and Infinity are two concepts that are so abstract and hard to comprehend but are so similar and almost the same thing. One is nothing, one is everything. Balance. The same but complete opposites. And like the quote above, infinity is zero twisted. Everything and Nothing are so connected just like everything else in nature. 

Little divergence. One thing that really irritates me is when people get an infinity symbol tattooed on them and they really have no idea what infinity means. Yes it means there is no end, but it is so much more than that.

Infinity has no limits. It is full but it keeps filling up. You can put anything into infinity and it will take it. It’s like continuously pouring water into a glass that fills up but never overflows. On the opposite side of the same spectrum, Zero is empty. It is never full and cannot hold anything. Think of it like the glass of water. Nothing is pouring water into a glass that never fills. The water disappears as soon as it touches the glass and the glass never gets wet. 

And yet if you twist a zero, it becomes an infinity. One small instant in life can take someone from being nothing to you to being your everything. Your zero to your infinity. 

Telling me you need nothing from me is something that can make you my everything. That twist that turns the tables.

So think about what you are to someone. Are you their nothing or their everything? What can you do to twist that nothing into everything? Go out there and find that twist and become someone’s everything!

Blessed be!

Seraphina

New Moon In Aquarius

Tonight the new moon will be in Aquarius. Here are some helpful guidelines when planning a spell or ritual for tonight:

I have personally been dreaming a lot lately about things I want and need in life. I feel like this new moon is telling me dream work right now is important. I’ve also gotten back in touch with two of the people that mean the world to me. My two Pieces 🙂 my partners in crime. 

It is also being said that this new moon will reveal your twin flame to you. Twin flames are so fickle. You may not even realize who that is, but keep an eye out. 

Here is a great mantra for today:

So when doing your magical work tonight, make sure that you focus on others. Do not do spells for yourself. That is not what this moon is meant to do. 

Blessed be!

Seraphina

Qualifications

So I’ve come up with a list of qualifications for my next relationship. Here it is:

  1. He has to challenge me mentally. I’m tired of dating men that cannot talk to me about the things that interest me because they simply do not understand them.
  2. No DUIs. Come on. “But I was young and stupid.” Yeah I was young and stupid once too but I didn’t get pulled over drunk.
  3. Doesn’t want kids. I know this is a sensitive topic but I don’t want kids. I don’t even think I can have them to be honest, so it’s easier to not want them then to be heartbroken over trying and failing to conceive. Plus I don’t want to grow a human. That’s too much work.
  4. Wants to travel. Obvious.
  5. Will take cute selfies with me and not bitch about it. 😛 
  6. Will do things with me like painting the house at 2am. Seriously because I just painted my upstairs hallway.
  7. Works out. This will motivate me to do the same.
  8. Physically attractive. Come on ladies. If you don’t wanna have sex with your man then the relationship is not gonna work.
  9. College degree or some kind of equivalent expensive piece of paper.
  10. Has his own goals in life. And wants to help me to achieve my goals.
  11. Will walk BESIDE me through life. Not in front of or behind me. I need someone who can share the load. I’m tired of being strong all by myself. Someone standing with me can help to ease some of the struggle.
  12. Supports me in what I do. I will do the same.
  13. “Put on that dress I like and I’ll pick you up at 7.” Plan dates for us. Stop using “I don’t know, you pick.” I want romance.
  14. Will want to take baths with me. 
  15. Bonfires, mud bogs, and truck pulls. Duh.
  16. Eats healthy. I need motivation in that area too.
  17. Spontaneous. What if I wanna drive to the beach one night and just lay out on the sand on a blanket and contemplate the universe with the waves crashing in the background?
  18. Since I’m a Scorpio, astrological matches are a must. No Libras. Sorry guys. I’m also pretty done with Virgos…
  19. Spiritual. Not religious. I’m a wiccan. I need someone that understands what I do. That’s important. No I will not go to church. So don’t ask.
  20. Will do yoga with me. I’ve always wanted to try tantric yoga 😉
  21. Most importantly…can understand, appreciate, and use sarcasm with ease.
  22. TATTOOS…I love them. I have lots and am getting more. Share this with me.
  23. Coffee drinker. This is kind of a deal breaker.
  24. Dog person.
  25. Has a job/career that he loves or is at least happy with.
  26. Has experience in the restaurant business. I’m tired of explaining to people why I don’t leave right at the time we close.
  27. He has to dance. This is also a deal breaker.
  28. I have to be attracted to his hands. I love rough hands. Working man’s hands. That know when to fight, when to work, and when to love. I need to feel safe and secure in his arms.

I know this is probably a tall order but I’m done with settling. I want what I want, and I will get what I want or I’ll just end up being the crazy dog lady.

I want my first marriage to be my only marriage.

You Don’t Believe? Then Don’t Worry.

So I was talking with a bar customer the other day and he made the statement “everyone who believes in astrology is crazy” and how he didn’t believe in astrology. That’s perfectly fine by me! We all have differing opinions about what we believe in. What I don’t understand is how you can’t believe in something but are afraid of it. For example:

If you don’t believe in magick, how can you believe that you have been cursed? That doesn’t make any damn sense. “I don’t believe that magick exists but please don’t curse me!” Really? That would be like saying “I don’t believe in God but I hope he doesn’t smite me for saying that.” If you don’t believe in God, there would be no ‘he’ and definitely no smiting. 

So anyway, this guy continues to tell me that he believes a certain person was going to or had put a curse on him. I explained to him that was not what was happening and tried an educational route. He responded with “I don’t believe in any of that.” *facepalm. I then tried to explain that if he truly didn’t believe in magick or any of “that”, he wouldn’t have to worry about being cursed. Ugh.

Yes, I am a witch. No, I will not curse you. That completely violates the threefold rule. That would be stupid. Going dark is not something you can come back from. I practice purely helpful magick, energy manipulation, meditation, spells for healing, spells for money, etc. I might occasionally bind someone but that’s as far as I go. 

So who do I worship? 

I worship no one being. I hate that word. I draw energy from the faces of the Divine diamond but I don’t worship anyone or anything. I simply call upon them for aid in whatever spell I’m working because divine energy is incredibly helpful. Yes I give thanks to those I call upon but it’s not worship. 

No, I don’t hurt people.  I also stay away from love spells. That’s a wishy washy subject. A “be careful what you wish for” topic.

My point?

People are stupid. Don’t be stupid. Believe what you want to. Your beliefs are yours and yours alone. Don’t believe in it? Don’t worry about it!

Blessed be.

Seraphina

Another Tidbit from the Fast Lane

We are the people our parents warned us about. Yup. It’s true. But you know what? We realize that you only have one life to live. So smoke, drink, and do whatever the fuck you want. Just make sure you have your shit together. Spend your money in the right places and have some responsibility. Being an adult is hard work and I know I’m still learning how to do it. Honestly, we will never fully “learn” how to adult properly. That’s half the fun. 

Living in the fast lane is great! You pass all the people that you don’t need in your life. The ones that can’t drive. Sometimes you’ll get that asshole that goes 5 miles under the speed limit in the fast lane and slows down traffic, but eventually you’ll get around them. Those are the people who think they can handle it but really can’t. They are very good at slowing down the people around them. I know I’ve said this before but misery loves company.

 So if you can’t handle it, move over and let everyone else get on with their lives. Stop being a roadblock. Stop feeling sorry for yourself and do something to change your life. Stop focusing on bringing other people down with you. That’s bullshit. The. End.