Intimacy

“To have someone understand your mind is a different kind of intimacy.”

Oh the truth behind this quote. 

I’d like to share with you the story of human creation as told in Greek mythology:

Humans were originally created with four arms, four legs, and a head with two faces. Fearing their power, Zeus split them into two beings condemning humankind to forever search for their other half.

Some people call your other half your soul mate or your twin flame. I feel like I have been searching endlessly for my other half. In my past relationships I fell in love with certain aspects of that person. One man was my high school sweetheart who shared my love of music, one was a firefighter I fell in love with for his hard work ethic and his moral responsibility, one was the typical “bad boy”…I don’t feel the need to explain that attraction, and the most recent man I fell in love with because he made me feel safe and secure. He loved me and took care of me. He worked hard every day and is the kind of man any woman would dream of having. 

So why did my last relationship fail? If he was so perfect why are we not together anymore? Why do I feel like I wasted three and a half years of my life? 

The answer is I didn’t waste any time at all. I found that we never connected on an intellectual level. I’m not saying he is a stupid person, not in any sense. He is extremely intellegent. What I am implying is we never took the time to understand eachother’s minds. The physical connection was amazing, and we all know that great sex is 50% of a relationship, but as I went on my journey of discovering who I was and what I wanted in life, I realized that he never understood what was going on in my mind. On the flip side, I didn’t understand how his mind worked either. Granted I didn’t realize that I was an empath or suffering from depression an anxiety so I didn’t know how to express myself. I am not great at face to face communication. Give me a pen and paper and I can tell you anything. Stand in front of me asking for answers to life, I’ve got nothing. So you can understand how that relationship came to an end.

Then I met my Gemini. I noticed him before he noticed me. Definitely a physical yearning there but more importantly than that, he took the time to get to know what was going on in my head. He makes me talk. He makes me put into words what I feel on a daily basis. He makes me reflect on what is making me distraught. He literally knows everything about me. Everything. We talk for hours on the phone almost everyday. My gemini is the one who really pushed me to be happy, to take on life with a new appreciation of the gift I have been given. “To have someone understand your mind is a different kind of intimacy.” 

I’ll share one such instance with you. After my breakup, I felt that I needed something in my life. I have a love for dogs. They are my children. I have one dog, Dixie, who has been with me for 3 years and I love her with all of my heart. But I needed something more, so I decided it was time to get another puppy. I called my Gemini and told him I was getting a puppy. Instead of telling me “you don’t need another dog, you need to focus on yourself” he instantly replied “I know why you’re getting a puppy and I fully support that decision.” He understood that being empathic I am very susceptible to feelings and energy. I needed to feel peace and happiness. A puppy exudes peace. Even when he’s running around biting my feet and driving me insane, because well he’s a puppy, I feel happiness and pure love. My gemini understood that without me having to explain anything. 

I have finally found what I have been missing in my relationships. Now, am I dating this mysterious man? Well, no. It’s hard to have a relationship with someone who is literally a world away from you. But he has taught me that I need to find someone who understands me. I need to take the time to understand someone else. That is literally the best kind of intimacy you can have with another human being.

Don’t settle for someone. Find that person who wants to know YOU. Be picky. Your other half is out there somewhere just waiting for you to find them.

Blessed be!

Seraphina 

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Risk It

Oh so true. Pure happiness is way too rare and way too precious to not go after. If you never take the chance, you will never reap the rewards. The worst thing that can happen is you make a mistake. But guess what? Mistakes are how we learn our lessons in life. Don’t miss out on an opportunity because you are too scared of failure. 

Let’s look at the word FAIL. I cannot remember where I saw this but the word FAIL stands for First Attempt In Learning. Remember that movie Meet The Robinsons? The characters were so excited when the pb&j machine blew up. They were screaming “yay you failed!” Keep that mentality. In order to succeed you must first fail.

Take the risk, make the jump, and live life to the fullest.

Blessed be!

Seraphina

Coffee

I feel that my love of coffee deserves a blog post so here it is:

Coffee and I have an undying relationship. When things get rocky, Coffee is what I turn to to make it all go away. A warm cup of coffee helps everything. Sometimes Coffee needs the help of his friends Baileys and Khalua (those are the more rough days) though. Like today. I have gone through so many emotions in the past two days it is unbelievable. My ex moved out yesterday, I’m suffering from a horrible ear infection, mother nature can be a bitch, and let me just say that when someone seems too good to be true…they are. 

So Baileys and Khalua have joined forces with Coffee to help me recover from this emotional bombardment. It also helped that my dear Scorpio friend came to visit today and I was able to sage my house of left over energies and get back into reading tarot. 

My all time favorite coffee mug. It combines my love of coffee with my love of Mustangs and Fords.

So thank you Coffee for being there when no one else is. You are warm and comforting to my soul. I think that you are my soul mate.

For real though, if you want to win me over, just bring me coffee…preferably from Dunkin Donuts.. Large Xtra Cream and Xtra Sugar 🙂

Blessed be!

Seraphina

Raise Your Vibration Part 2

You are probably sitting there thinking “Well that’s great and all, but how do I accomplish raising my vibration? What does it mean?” 

Every soul buzzes at a certain frequency. Everything living and non-living has an energy, or at least the ability to hold energy. Crystals, for example, have a natural frequency of their own but are also charged by their owners. 

So how can you stop living at a low frequency? Here’s something I found very helpful in my journey:

If you feel yourself getting low, go dancing, hug a friend, cuddle with your pet, do some arts and crafts, write something, go take a walk outside and just listen and feel what mother nature has to offer, take a deep breath and re-center yourself. “Oh but I’m so busy. I don’t have time for that.” Yes you do. I live a very busy chaotic life yet I’ve started MAKING time for these things and I’ve really felt and seen a difference in myself. People close to me have noticed a difference too.

Just do it.

Blessed be!

Raise Your Vibration

Came across this today. This is what I am always trying to explain to people. Just feel it. Raise your vibrations, get right with the universe. 

The universe constantly speaks to me not in words but in feelings. Since I have started letting the universe do its thing, I have been much happier. 

Someone asked me about a week ago how I know what the universe is trying to tell me. “How do you know the universe is actually leading you? Is there some kind of signal it gives you?” Yes, actually there is. It’s called gut instinct. My gut has never failed me…not once. Everytime I have ignored it, life hasn’t been pretty. 

Go with your gut, raise your vibrations, trust your instincts…they are there for a reason!

Blessed be!

Wolf Moon – January 12th

 

One thing I am going to commit to this year is celebrating all of the full moons.  They have so much to offer us if we just take the time to really understand and work with them.

The Full Moon is best used for banishing unwanted influences in your life.  This of it as ‘shining a light’ on issues or challenges.  It can also be a good time for creating protection magik and performing divination.  You can use this time for releasing old patterns or issues, and open the door for healing by giving energy to positive patterns you’ll put in place.  Full Moon magik can be conjured during the 3 days prior to the rise of the Full Moon, the night of the Full Moon, the night of the Full Moon and during the 3 days after.

Normally during a full moon I set out all of my crystals to cleanse them.  I have also started making moon water for cleansing and purifying during the time when the moon is not full and I need a fast solution.

The first full moon of 2017 falls on January 12th and it is the Wolf Moon.  In Native American tradition, this time of year was a time of hunger.  This moon gets its name from the wolf packs that would howl outside of villages during the snowy season.

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It is really hard to find any rituals regarding the Wolf Moon.  I have found through some research that this moon is more in tune with rebirth.  Since I like to use fire, candles, and herbs in all of my rituals I would probably start off by writing down things that I want to “get rid of” in my life and burn it.  I came across one ritual where it said to find three items that represent what you want to leave behind and bury them under the full moon.  I feel, however, that burning something is a better way to get that energy back into the universe.

My final opinion…have a bonfire.  Invite a few friends over and have them bring something to burn.  Enjoy the energy surrounding you and soak it in.  Watch as your negative influences burn in the fire.  You can cast a circle if you wish.  Make it your own.  The best part about being Wiccan or Pagan or what ever you want to classify yourself as, is that you get to do these things how you FEEL they should be done.  If you want to use earth as your element in this one, bury your items or list.  It’s up to you.  There is no right or wrong way.

Welcome 2017

I know that I’m not the only person who is glad that 2016 has come to an end.  It was a very rocky year in which a lot of things changed.  The biggest change that happened for me was that I decided to leave my teaching career.  It was the best decision I have made in a very long time.

I have since gone back to bartending and I honestly could not be more happy.  I enjoy going to work every day.  I thrive on chaos, so working behind a bar satisfies that need.  No two shifts are the same; I get to meet new people daily, and I get to use my knowledge of mixology.  Having a math oriented brain makes mixing drinks very satisfying and simple.

2016 brought the most amazing people into my life.  I met two wonderful Piceses who mean the world to me (even though we do not talk every day),  I’ve met a wonderful, beautiful Cancer who will become my new roommate very soon, and I’ve met two wonderful Scorpios who share my life goals and dreams.  I also met a Gemini who was the first person to ever understand what I go through on a daily basis being an empath and suffering from depression and anxiety.  These people have changed me in ways I never thought were possible, and I wouldn’t trade them for the world.

2016 also brought heartbreak.  My relationship of 3 and a half years officially ended right before Thanksgiving, although in both of our hearts it ended over the summer. Even though I have spent the last two months crying daily and going through our home separating our belongings, it has been a freeing experience, and I have had the support of loving and caring people.

The past couple of weeks leading up to 2017 have been stressful, depressing, and chaotic, but also very revealing.  I am starting to live healthier, cleaner, and happier.  I have gotten back into yoga, I am eating healthier, and I have started back up with my wiccan practices.

So, with that being said, welcome to my blog “Soul In the Fast Lane”.  I will be sharing my journey of spiritual development here.  I hope that you will enjoy taking this journey with me as I find out things about myself I never knew before, try to overcome my depression and anxiety, figure out more about what being an empath really means and how to handle it, and as I make changes to live healthier and happier.

Welcome 2017 and Blessed Be!

Seraphina