So I apparently never pressed “publish” on this yesterday…🤦
____20 Facts About YOU___
1) My dogs are my children.
2) I’m addicted to buying purses 🙄. As well as cowboy boots.
3) I have a coffee cup collection. (Justin calls it an addiction.)
4) I love to cross stitch. I’m making Justin a stocking for Christmas. (It’s ok…he knows so you can’t spoil it for him 😘).
5) I live to dance. I also love to dance.
6) I go line dancing and country swing dancing in my free time.
7) I’ve been doing color guard and winter guard for 17 years.
8) I moved from the country to the city and I hate it.
9) I hate hip hop, r&b, and rap music. Nowadays you can’t understand what they are talking about and when you look up the lyrics…just ugh.
10) Country music concerts are the best concerts because the artists actually sound like they do on their CDs.
11) My sister is an assistant wine maker at a winery back home. She bottled and sold her own wine!
12) I’d rather stay at home curled up on the couch with a book and the TV on then go out.
13) I’m a night owl. I get my best work done after midnight.
14) I work night shift. See 13.
15) I’m a bartender/mixologist.
16) I’m slowly but surely working on learning flair.
17) I love school supplies.
18) My style is bohemian country chic.
19) My grandpa calls me a redneck hippie.
20) Last but not least, I have the most amazing boyfriend in the whole entire world. He treats me like a Queen and loves me for who I am. I love him more than he knows.
What is insanity?
There are a lot of definitions. There are a lot of large vocabulary words and medical terms to describe what insanity is, but wanting someone you can’t have is probably the most accurate.
Being so wildy attracted to someone you can’t have is insanity. It’s like being hit by a bus everytime you see them. For a fleeting moment the adrenaline kicks in and you feel so high, then the most intense pain you’ve ever felt washes over you like a tidal wave. You leave feeling so alone, so empty, a shell of a human being. That person’s face haunts you. It’s the first one you see when you wake up because all you can dream about is them. It’s the last face you see before you fall asleep. Permanently etched into your vision. It gets to the point where you don’t want to wake up because the life you have with them in dreamland is so perfect and you don’t want to be thrust back into the reality of them not loving you back.
Insanity is feeling your phone go off and hoping it’s them, then feeling your heart sink into your stomach every time it’s not. Insanity is crying on your way to work because you’ve finally let yourself realise you’re in love with them and can’t have them. Insanity is sitting in your kitchen by yourself drinking a cup of coffee remembering what they sound like when they laugh, the sparkle in their eye when they tell you about the crazy shit they get themselves into, how easily they get you to open up to them about anything and everything.
Insanity is wondering. Do they feel the same about you? Do they see you in the same halo of light you see them? Does their heart get ripped out of their chest everytime you leave? Do they lay awake at night thinking about what it would be like to hold you in their arms every day? Do they wonder what you’re thinking when your eyes meet? Do they know how much joy and pain they cause you?
So, by definition, I am insane.
Hello out there! It’s been a while! You know how life can catch you in some busy times. It’s been a busy couple of weeks. I have neglected my blog, but I’m back to a point where I can post every day again! Not much has changed, just been working a lot.
I’ve started going to the gym regularly to get back in shape. I found out really quickly that I’m not in the shape I used to be! What prompted me going to the gym is my dancing is suffering because my muscles have gotten weak and my flexibility is almost gone. So I’m hopping back on the yoga train and I’m working out three times a week.
Wish me luck! Keep an eye out for more posts coming soon!
Blessed be to you all!
You know what the best answer to the question “what is it you want from me?” is? “Nothing.”
Saying this to a person who has given everything to everyone they have ever known is the most heartstopping, breathtaking, absolutely freeing response. “A person in my life doesn’t actually want anything from me.”
Some of you may think “we’ll damn that’s kinda harsh” when in reality it’s the nicest thing someone can say to you. It can translate into “I do not need anything from you, just having you in my life is enough.”
I love balance. Yin and yang, good and evil, everything and nothing, harmony. So in all reality, telling me you need and want nothing from me is basically saying that I’ve already given you everything you want or need.
I love the above quote because it’s roots are in math. Zero is empty. It is the definition of nothing. Infinity is full. It is the definition of everything. Zero and Infinity are two concepts that are so abstract and hard to comprehend but are so similar and almost the same thing. One is nothing, one is everything. Balance. The same but complete opposites. And like the quote above, infinity is zero twisted. Everything and Nothing are so connected just like everything else in nature.
Little divergence. One thing that really irritates me is when people get an infinity symbol tattooed on them and they really have no idea what infinity means. Yes it means there is no end, but it is so much more than that.
Infinity has no limits. It is full but it keeps filling up. You can put anything into infinity and it will take it. It’s like continuously pouring water into a glass that fills up but never overflows. On the opposite side of the same spectrum, Zero is empty. It is never full and cannot hold anything. Think of it like the glass of water. Nothing is pouring water into a glass that never fills. The water disappears as soon as it touches the glass and the glass never gets wet.
And yet if you twist a zero, it becomes an infinity. One small instant in life can take someone from being nothing to you to being your everything. Your zero to your infinity.
Telling me you need nothing from me is something that can make you my everything. That twist that turns the tables.
So think about what you are to someone. Are you their nothing or their everything? What can you do to twist that nothing into everything? Go out there and find that twist and become someone’s everything!
Adventures aren’t always traveling far away. They can be as simple as going to Waffle House at 3am or a spontaneous trip to the river five minutes from your house. Adventures don’t always have to be with someone else either. You could take a trip to a little hole in the wall used book store or take yourself out to lunch.
It’s always fun with somebody though. Everyone needs that one person to randomly do shit with. That friend that will call you at 2pm and say “get dressed we’re going on an adventure”.
Be that friend. Call someone close to you and go do something. Go get coffee. Go get tattoos. Do an impromptu photo shoot in the park near your house.
Getting ready to move across the country, I’m looking for my adventure buddy. Be that a romantic partner or a friend…doesn’t matter. I’d love to have someone pack everything up and travel with me. On the way to Arizona we will stop at all the breweries on the way. Site see, stay in motels, sing loudly to every song on the radio, just enjoy being together. We can go anywhere and do anything. The world is our playground.
Now accepting applications 😉
Yes, you read that right. Fuck ’em. If you don’t have haters then you aren’t living your life to the fullest.
Gossip and rumors happen but you have to learn how to let it roll off your back. Understand that people talk. Boring people talk about you because you are more beautiful, successful, and intellegent than they will ever be.
I know you’re probably thinking “that is so high school”. You’re right. The people that start this shit are still stuck in high school. They were most likely bullies and had nothing going for them and still don’t, so they resort to spreading rumors and false truths about the successful people around them. They will also be extremely coniving and do things to ruin other people’s livelihoods to get the job that they desire. They know that they have no real skills and have to undermine someone else in order to get where they want to be. Yes, it’s bullshit, but yes it happens. I’ve seen it so many times. We love in a world where no one wants to put effort in anymore, they want the easy way out, or in.
My advice? Stay away from these people. They will talk about you no matter what but if you leave them be to suffer in their own misery, you won’t fuel their fire.
Remember misery loves company. So fuck ’em. Do you and be you and don’t worry about anyone else.